*Photo: Jerome Ascano, NPPA Images
"Kasi parang feeling ko naman, naforgive ko na si James, naforgive na nya ako. Nakamove on na sya. Ako, siguro. Pero yung pagbangon muli, parang maraming within in me na kailangan kong piece by piece ayusin talaga. So yun ang ginagawa ko," Kris told members of the entertainment media yesterday, April 5, during the press launch of "My Heart's Journey," her fifth full-length album.
Because of what she experienced from her separation with Yap and the legal process involved with it, Kris told the press that she's saying "never again" to love and marriage.
"As of today, ayoko na talaga," she said. "Di kasi ako allowed to talk about the annulment process but it's really difficult. I took the stand—I'm not allowed to share what the testimony was, of course—but I took the stand almost three weeks ago. And pagkatapos nun, tinext ko ang ate ko, si ate Ballsy, and I said, 'Ate, never again na talaga. And you can keep this text and show it to me again next time na may gusto akong ipakilala sa inyo na he's the one.' Sasabihin ko, 'Ate, pakita mo sa akin na para paalala mo yung sinabing kong never again. So as of April 5, never again."
Kris explained: "Parang ano siguro, marami masyadong masakit na pinagdadaanan ang couple na naghihiwalay kaya ayaw mo talaga maulit yun. So para di maulit, wag ka na lang ikasal ulit."
When asked what her heart has learned about love from her experience, Kris said, "Tumigil na. Yun ang natutunan ng puso ko. Awat na, tigil na. Manahimik ka na." She added, "Mag-usap tayo ulit ng October 11, 2011. Wedding anniversary yun ng mom and dad ko. Pero as of now, yun talaga. Awat na, tumigil ka naman, manahimik ka."
Song of her life. Because the press conference was for the launch of her new album, the press asked what right now is the song of her life.
Kris said if the question was asked three weeks ago, her answer would have been "I Want To Know What Love Is." But she added: Pero nga kasi, kahit sino sigurong nakipaghiwalay at tinatapos yun sa legal na proseso, maga-agree sa akin. You'd really reach a point na ayaw mo muna talaga. So ako, I don't even want to know what love is at this point."
Right now, however, her answer is "Breakeven" by the Irish pop rock band The Script.
"It's about a break-up talaga na sana talaga pag naghihiwalay pantay yung heartbreak. E hindi talaga," she said.
A part of the song goes: "What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you/What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay/I'm falling to pieces."
No pain. Kris clarified that she is happy. She described her life as not complicated, relaxed, and "steady." "Okay na yun. Ayoko ng guluhin pa. Maayos na," Kris said.
Did the pain caused by separation resurface during the court hearing?
"Hindi pain. Kasi I always say walang regrets kasi nabigyan ako ng James Aquino-Yap. That's Bimby," Kris said, adding that James has nothing to do with her "never again" resolution.
But are the two of them friends right now, the entertainment press asked. Kris answered" "Hindi rin."
"Syempre nung nag-hearing ako, di ba? So di na kami nag-talk ulit," she said.
Kris added, "I've already learned to separate kung ano meron kaming problema o kung ano ang pinagdadaanan namin from his role as the father of Bimby. For as long as okay sila, labas na ako sa equation na yan."
Diether and Jun. And what about Diether Ocampo? Kris said they are not dating. The two were seen together during the Golden Screen Awards in Teatrino, Greenhills last Saturday.
"Ngayon na nagpapa-annul ako, kung meron talagang namamagitan sa amin ni Diet, do you think we'd be hanging out with each other for all of you to see? Hindi, di ba? Magtatago na lang kami sa bahay. Pero talagang friend na friend na friend ko sya talaga. At alam nya at alam ko na hanggang dun lang yun," she said.
As for Makati Mayor Jejomar Erwin "Junjun" Binay?
"We're really very good friends. We communicate daily. I have 100 percent trust in him and he also trusts me 100 percent, pero it's just that. Magkaibigan lang talaga kami," Kris said.
She explained that they are currently discussing a possible fund-raising activity for OFWs, hence the "very open communication lines." "Pero walang anything romantic," Kris added.
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